I. WITHOUT DANCING
to be without to be withheld
to be alone, to feel vacant, to be a curtain drawn closed
a curtain
drawn closed
to find energy to reimagine
an ache
find energy to rethink
give and give
What do we have to offer but ourselves?
What do I have to offer
an ache
The dance of waking up
The dance of cooking, walking, chatting
The dance of laughing
wake
ache
give
II. CHAOS OXYGEN
I feel like I can’t breathe
the stress of it all.
imaging rolling, reaching
imagining bodies, rolling, diving, reaching
imagining the chaotic beauty of it all
things are so still
objects, are still
I’m stuck to the floor
my tongue, stuck in my mouth
life feels far away
life is here, now
I am far away
stuck in my imagination
rolling, reaching, sweating
hurling bodies, chaos
oxygen
III. SMALL DOSES
There are cushions on the floor, for us to sit.
tree branches wag and a loud cleaning noise comes
from somewhere
Around us, space, within us, space
we talk, the sun is hidden, but may emerge
What does it mean to the world to do what we do in the world
to be us
What does it mean to us to be here, in the process, just
On the precipice of so much
On the brink
On the ledge of a new process of, a new way of working of,
an imagined place
To be in space
To be
on the precipice
of the world, of so much
of it means
to the world
to us
Rachel Maddock is an independent dance artist and writer based in and around Vancouver and Port Moody, BC. She is still working out (with deep gratitude) her relationship to the land she lives on. Movement and words are her best options for expression — an anchor, a lifeline, and a harbour. An opportunity to come back to self and offer the world something true: rachelmaddock.com